Belated Thankfulness ~ Thanksgiving 2006

Nov 27, 2006
Belated Thankfulness...but it's always good to be thankful

So, I've been thinking about the things I'm thankful for. I thought it would be nice to share a few and hopefully hear back from my friends about the things they are thankful for too. Maybe if we all share in the good things we can slightly alter the path of the planet....who knows ;-)

I am thankful for Ian and Ciera. Those two little people have changed my life in more ways I than I thought possible. They've taught me patience, the joy of living for someone other than myself, that I don't have all the answers (but that's ok) so I always want to learn more things so I can teach them. Without even knowing it they've shown me that I am capable of loving unconditionally, that even when I make mistakes dealing with them I am still the perfect mother for them....hmmmm.....

I am thankful for the past 9 years of my life. Without having experienced them I couldn't look forward to the next 9 years with such excitment. I've grown up, been hurt, become a mother, made my home 'homey', learned how NOT to communicate, hurt others, grown up some more, changed my outlook on life, and more or less figured out who I am. Thank you past....

I'm thankful for my childhood. It was rough and hurtful. It was abusive but there were moments of sweetness. When I think back and am distressed by the things that happened to me, I recongnize that all of those events (while they were the choices of other people who though little of my emotional welfare) we're molding me and bringing me to the end of myself so I could manifest something bigger. It's still hurts but it hasn't destroyed me. In fact, it probably brought me to this place of awareness much sooner than if I had lived an ideal little life. I'm eternally thankful for my pain because I was able to see who I should NOT be....I was able to look beyond the destroyer and see the beauty....and grasp what was hidden from me. It's mine now and it can't be taken from me again.

I'm thankful for my mistakes. While it's been hard to deal with them in the moment I realize that the mistakes that we make validate our right choices. What value would we place on utopia if we actually lived it? Choosing the wrong things and dealing with the consequences enabled me to be able to truly appreciate and treasure my next steps. I'm not sorry for my mistakes....I AM penitent for those I've hurt or affected by my selfishness and stupidity, but I am not sorry that I 'fell'....

I am thankful for the beauty outside my window. I look outside sometimes and cannot believe that people think that all of this came from nothing. How can you not look at a leaf of a bug and see the very image of God burned into it? The hand of a benevolent Creator is so visible, and here we sit not really paying attention and quietly doing all we can to make it all go away. My daughter, Ciera, LOVES the outdoors. She actually hugs trees!! NO KIDDING! She is one of the people who've gotten me out of my own head and into the open...she knows without a shadow a a doubt that there is LOVE in all of creation and I've seen her feed on it. I've learned to see every nuance, every little breeze as a complete expression of affection for me personally from Someone who also made sure that ever part of me was exactly where it needed to be. I'm thankful for my planet and the air that I breathe....and the people I share it with even though it seems that most of them are happily ignorant.

I'm thankful for the future. I don't know what it holds but I know that I control it! My choices and my responses to other people's choices will shape my path and take me....well, only God knows where.

I'm thankful for free will and rapid-fire synapses :-)

I'm thankful for the people who give without wondering what they'll get back.

I'm thankful for the people who only know how to take. It takes all of us to balance this crazy world out.

I'm thankful that I have the opportunity to be alive and cognizant. So thankful that every minute I live is another opportunity to change my forthcoming existence and possibly contribute to the happiness of someone I love. Thankful that I have two eyes to see, two ears to hear, skin that feels everything that it should and protects my insides, bones that are strong, extra melanin that spatters across my skin when the sun shines....thankful to be alive....and I WILL be thankful when I die. Whether there is life after this or not really doesn't matter in the grand scheme of today. What matters is that I live with a thankful and greatful heart and I close my eyes every night knowing that waking up the next day will be yet again another gift.

Happy Belated Thankfulness everybody. Actually, it's NOT late....it should be ALWAYS.

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!

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